Zen says Enlightenment is everyday mind. So what is everyday but right here on FB. When a critical word is thrown at me, I feel the urge to defend, attack, or just withdraw and lick my wound. Either way I react in body and mind. However, when I remember Zen, instead of being divided by this Koan (the unkind word and my reaction) I ask the Question: What is this feeling, this urge to attack or run. What is this feeling? The question of Not Knowing, drops body and mind, leaving just the body, the feeling without the story from the mind.
This restores my center in the body. My center had been divided between body (hurt feeling) and mind’s story of who did it. Body and mind had been divided. When the right question is asked, BAM! I am then restored by being only in the body, in the awareness fo the present moment which is the pain of this feeling that is now Just This…feeling.
This space then opens up where I respond in an unpredictable way, but is will be creative because it is not conditioned by my past body/mind reaction. This really questions my identity. Who am I? I assume that I am my story of Me, and I know who I am because I’m conditioned by my story and its predictable reactions to situations that hurt me, get me off my center.
When I don’t react, I don’t know who I am because I don’t know what I’m going to say or do, since this action is not conditioned by my past. I am now liberated from the Law of the Past and my conditioned self. This liberation from the urge to reaction liberates the energy used to support this reaction, and that energy becomes creative energy…or a satori.
The core idea here is where we get the energy from to break out of the Koan, which is a dilemma place upon us by the Zen master of life. When caught in a dilemma, there is no available energy for transcendence of the problem. In fact, we begin to lose energy as the dilemma becomes a feed-back loop like a mic in an amplifier.
There is no external energy from God, the Cosmos, or the Master but the energy of our own psyche. We have to find the energy within our system, in the same way the computer uses the ram it has. The energy becomes available when we shift out attention from investment in the polarity of the feed-back loop to being aware of the loop, being aware of the see saw from the park bench, so to speak.
That energy that was invested in our object of attention, either pole of the polarity, now becomes free energy when our center is restored in the feeling without the polarity of the story. Our Center is the source of creative energy that is life. When our mind is split into two equal but contradictory centers or Me’s, the energy is turned against itself like the Ouroboros. Our energy drains rapidly.