Where there is struggler, there is choice, and when this struggle becomes a portal or a block (which is the same thing, blocks are portals), the choices are lose/lose, from your view point. If I choose this I lose the benefits of the other choice/if I choose the other choice I lose the benefits of this choice. You see? A double-bind of two equal but opposite choices. One wants to get to the NOW where there is no choice, or what we imaging as wholeness, which is not being divided by choice.
Since. you are on the Quest for Now (ET) this dilemma is not really about money, it’s about breaking through the portal to the Other Side of…you.
You can’t choose your way out, when you are caught in the. DB, the double-bind of choices. You need a good metaphor, and the metaphor of the guy who can’t dance is a good working metaphor because it is common to our everyday mind.
When you stand outside of the Now—which BTW is where our thinking culture puts us—choices become a vortex of never, never arriving. We are taught to believe that choice is freedom and that through choice we can reach the goal, dream, or whatever we imagine the Now to be. But one can’t choose to be Now. You can’t choose to be Now with a scalpel. Choice divides because choice need two from which to choose. You defined it well: to be secure or not to be secure. That is the choice.
This is really a fundamental choice, you know, between adventure (Quest for the Now) and security. We frame this choice, however, as either/or. I can only have one or the other but not both, not Risk/Security. The Now is having it all, because the Now cannot be divided into either/or. You see? The Now is not choice of either this Now or that Now. There is only One Now and you are IT!
You can’t choose the Now, but we have to come to the Portal where we see that there is no exist or salvation through choice. We have to feel, we have to realize through and through that there is no way to the Now, No Exit out of my dilemma.
Now here’s the revelation. I’ll share it with you. Don’t tell anyone. SEEING that there is no Way to the Now through choice is the NOW. BAM! The Now is SEEING that I cannot choose my way to the now with the scalpel of choice. I cannot cut and divide my way to the Whole.
When I just stop, surrender, give up, I give up when I see there is absolutely no way to choose my way out of a situation. There is NO CHOICE. And, guess what? The Now is No Choice. I have no choice but to be Now. Watch the movie Hurt Locker.