I continue my exploration of Catch 22, the movie as a metaphor being applied to your everyday mind and life. Why do we suffer? That is my primary interest and question. I want to know. Is it possible to be free of psychological suffering? If I could understand, actually see, the Operating System of my mind in action, would I be free from the suffering of the mind? Who is it that sees the OS of the mind. If the mind’s OS is a teeter totter, a seesaw, what would it be like to see that system from the park bench. Who would be sitting on the park bench if the mind were the seesaw?
Why the view or the awareness from the park bench would not be a view from some location, but a locationless view, or space that is awareness. The awareness would be that of the park that holds the OS of the mind, the Catch 22 of the Seesaw.
The mind’s OS is an I-IT relationship. I (you the subject knows or is conscious of IT (form). But this I as subject is also object or IT. You are both the knower and the known (as an object that knows) at the same time. So who are you? Is there two ME’s? Are you Two or One, and if One, can you know the One as IT? This One is illusive. You cannot catch it. Consciousness comes in two…22. You cannot catch the One that is Two…yet the One exists. So where is the One? What is the portal to the One, to the space that is awareness?
This portal is the Pause of Not Knowing. The search for the One is suspended, but you don’t disengage and find an escape. You stay present with the question. The question opens the door and invites the One to enter. Love is invited when the feedback loop of Catch 22 is suspended. That pause, that active suspension of movement is Zen..is healing.