Again I return to my metaphor of the caterpillar and the butterfly. You have to be a butterfly. But as a caterpillar you have no idea what a Butterly is like. If you are afraid to start a new business, a new relationship, start something that is calling you, you can notice your mind creating obstacles. What will I eat, How will I make money, what will people think…All that. But butterfly has no worries because everywhere he goes there are plenty of flowers.
The butterfly creates the flowers he needs. The flowers and the butterfly create each other. But when we are a caterpillar we can’t understand that everything is interrelated. The caterpillar sees the world from a worms point of view. The worm is our mind that fears to create itself, to step out into the present moment and just fly on the wing of your own joy of flying, of being present, of being here.
As long as we fear the future and worry about what will happen and alll the What Ifs, we are in a worms mind. If our longing is strong and our heart pure, at some point along your twig, you will go through a moment of crisis, a cocoon of transformation through suffering, and you will come out a butterfly.
We have to want that transformation without having any idea what it will be like to be a butterfly. We just want to die to our worminess, but there is no guarantee there is such a thing as a butterfly or a world full of flowers.
As caterpillars we all have moment of flying, but the worm karma closes over those moments like ice on a lake. The world we create when we are born, slowly with our mother’s directions and then society’s warp and woof, we create the cocoon in which our wings are grown. This very world where you perceive yourself to be at odds with it, a stranger in a foreign land, an exile, is the cocoon for our rebirth. When you become a butterfly, you will fly back among your worm friends and families, and they won’t see you. They will still see your old personality, your old worm self. A worm can only see worms. When a butterfly sees a worm, it sees a potential butterfly. It sees a butterfly that believes it is a worm.