This talk had a lot of energy as I’ve been kind of meditating or dwelling on the New Moon and the portal to the Sun God or Awareness, which is the course of our being, the light that illuminates our thinking. When we are aware of thoughts and images, what is the light the illuminates the content of our mind? Thoughts don’t illuminate themselves. It is the Sun of awareness that stands behind the mind as the sun illuminates the moon. It’s as if the Sun of awareness is behind us throwing light onto our mind, but we can’t see the Sun because….we are the Sun. If we turn around, it is still the moon reflecting our own awareness. We can perceive our own source, our awareness or the Knower.
These symbols of the sun and moon are themselves access to our own source. They make tour mind transparent to the transcendent which is the Sun..our source. Now if you want to call your source God, that is fine. Call him whatever you want because he has no name…and neither do you. As the source of names, what is your name?
OK, now we’re talking about understanding, thanks to my friend Thomas. The way to understanding is through the pairs of opposites, which is right or wrong. In argument we get stuck in the pairs of opposites: I’m right and you’re wrong. Back and forth you go in a feedback loop that increase anger and frustration, until someone gets deleted. The way through the portal of the new moon is to surrender to the urge to be right and hold both side as equally right. You resist the urge to dominate. You resist the urge to be on top, to have the certainty of your position. You hold. Yet you don’t leave. You are awake and aware without the mind moving to one position or another. You hold no position. You are empty.
And when you are empty you slip unseen through the portal, through the pairs of opposite opinions, into the light of Understanding. You SEE! That’s the Sun God. (metaphor.)
In this talk we also talked about the Goddess of the Moon, the Earth Mother who gives birth to form and takes it back. She comes in pairs, like big boobs. The portal of rebirth out of the world womb is through the pairs of opposites when both are equal. Both being equal, you can’t choose, but you must choose, so the mind loosed from its moorings of choice, goes into a tail spin of panic. I must choose but I can’t. They are both the same. And I can’t choose because the Mother is one. Both boobs are the One that is two. So if I choose one, I don’t choose the other. But they are both One. You can’t choose the reflection of the mirror and not have the mirror, or choose the mirror without getting the reflection. They are Two, but your can’t separate them. You See? With this gestalt image, you can’ choose the old woman or the young woman because they are One that is two. When you come to this portal, you can go through if you surrender the urge to choose, and the panic when you can’t choose.