The medical students came to visit be as a requirement for the geriatrics class. As I’m almost 81 I qualify. But I’m upstream of geriatrics or seniors—like Kurtz in the Heart of Darkness and the Apocalypse is upstream of the known world—because I have no future or past. When you are young, you have a future; when you are old you have a past. I have neither. I am Just This. That’s why I’m so happy.
What does it mean to have no future? It means that Just This has no reference to future or past. Just what’s happening cannot be better than it is, either better in the future or like the past. Time is not a reference. When time, your clock in the mind, is not a reference everything is Just This. And BAM! life shifts from having its meaning reference to time, to having Just This being all the meaning you need, and believe me, Just This is real meaning because it is life itself. Meaning referenced to time is artificial meaning, made up meaning, and behind that meaning is the great fear that you have no meaning.