I still stew and perk,
letting its meaning come to me in little jerks
something pulling me to greater awareness
of the Stench of Lies
and how our hero escaped the Labyrinth.
If you recall the movie, the hero cut the cord
with a mad act where he rose out of the river,
a baptism if you will,
and killed Kurtz and then walked away.
The question is this, the answer is this, is it a mad act that frees you from the double-bind of the Stench of Lies where everything is a lie. If everything is a lie, where is truth. If every truth is a lie, what do you do, because everything you do is also a lie. In other words, if every choice is a lie, what do you choose? If you can’t choose anything, what do you do.
The point here is that only a mad act, an insane act will get you out of the fix. I take my cue from Avatar where Jake Sully was caught in a double-bind between the world idea of the Sky. People (the mind) and the Navi (the heart) or the objective and the subject, and he didn’t know which was the real. So he jumped on the Last Shadow…an insane act, he said because he didn’t know if the dragon would eat him or not.
And my other guru is Zorba the Greek who said: “A man needs a little madness or he will never cut the rope.” So when caught in the double-bind where everything is a stench of lies the only way to sanity is insanity. Now don’t get me wrong, because one might interpret this to give you permission to make the mad act of a mass shooter. Well, that is a mad act, isn’t it, but not a creative act, not an act that heals the wound. A mad act can just expand the wound or cauterize it. The wound is separate. And the separation we are talking about there is the separation or the division Truth into two opposite but mutually dependent halves, so no matter which one you choose, you can’t leave out the other side because it is a reflection of you. If you cut the other out, you cut yourself out, since you are a mirror reflection of each other. Truth is never divided. It division is always apparent.
So…and here’s the point (if there is one) when the world becomes mad…you only choice is madness, for then your mad act will actually be sane, since all other choices are insane. This is the choiceless choice or act.
As I explore the Idea in this talk, I am relieved from the horns of the dilemma that our everyday lives are most often caught up in. When caught in a double-bind where everything you do to get out just keeps you in, caught on the stick pad of ambiguity, it’s only the Mad Act that can set you free. And the Mad Act is going to be spontaneous, something. you have ever done before, never thought of doing, and probably were afraid of doing. The Horns of the dilemma, of the Bull Horns, is the ancient Auroboros. the self swelling dragon of our own self-reflective consciousness.
The self-reflecting consciousness makes us human. It is both a blessing and a curse. A blessing because it gives birth to the ecstasy of creativity and a curse because the same dilemma gives birth of violence and self destruction. Self-reflecting consciousness or a split mind that is subject and object, is driven to restore original unity. The two paths are either to destroy your reflection (the enemy) or leap beyond your polarity and create an entirely new Idea of You in the world. You create a new world Idea when you leap beyond the polarity of your mind caught in a war against itself, unable to choose either one half or you or the other.