This was a narcissistic talk, all about me, but then what is about you and me. We are all narcissistic in that way, all the center of the world as a ME. But what is our True Center, our Dynamic Center, that is the question we need to ask. We are all seeking a Static Center, a self that is an image, a special image with credentials, value, able to get respect and purpose. We are forced by the world to settle for whatever scraps we can get. But this Static image Center is not our True Center, which is Dynamic and as dynamic it is a verb not a noun. A verb has no location on the space/time grid.You can’t find a verb. You don’t see verbs walking around. A verb is empty. Only nouns are full of definitions and images. Our true nature is that of a Verb.
So how do we find that Dynamic Verb Center? By discovering and eliminating all the false Static Centers we create to satisfy the hunger of the Quest for he Center. All these static centers are dependent upon the world and its approval,or disapprove in some cases if you are a rebel, to hold us in place. What the self image fears most is having the table cloth pulled from beneath the place settings. That magic trick is Zen, or the Transcendent Path to discover the Dynamic Center that has no place or form or image.
We leave the Quest for a worldly image and being the spiritual quest for the dynamic center through a series of spiritual images held in place by spiritual traditions, gurus and gods. But still we are seeking something, a stable self image that is not bothered by the quest, that will be at rest. But no image can be at rest because it is like an ice cube in a warm bowl of water. The changing world is constantly melting it, and we have to freeze up with renewed effort and belief. The feeling of melting is an indication you are going in the right direction.
Whenever we rest in an image, worldly or spiritual we are going to experience discontent, either mildly or severely. The greater the disturbance, the greater the gap between our image and our dynamic center, which is our holy grail, so to speak. But even those close to the grail, will feel the disturbance in the field that says, I’m still clinging to something. What is it?
There are bright days and there are cloudy days in the weather of the mind. When the day is bright, you feel light and the daily work is joyous. Creativity flows off the ends of your fingers. When it is cloudy, you don’t want to get out of bed, so to speak. The best path to sustained clear weather is to accept the cloudy days as Just This, and it is OK. It is all just weather, the good and the bad days. This puts you in touch with THAT which is beyond weather, like The Crown (Netflix) that is above the weather of politics, untouched by the smog of the world.
This was an interesting episode in the Crown, the Great Smog of London. Churchill said it was just weather. Buck up. But the people were dying and they needed their dynamic center. They needed their leader to shake his fist at God himself, at the weather itself. It wasn’t until the smog became personal and Churchill lost his secretary in a smog accident that the old Churchill came roaring back, and he shook his fist at the Forces of Evil and said will will never surrender.
So when the smog comes in your life, don’t just choke and cough, grab your Churchill and shake your fist at a the sky and say “We will never surrender.”
Awakening comes in sudden jerks or in slow perking like a Mr. Coffee. Drip, drip, drip come the insights. But the road is clear; you are moving from unconsciousness to consciousness., from dream to being awake. The Call is always present, and the more we refuse the call, the more dramatic the wake up calls. Life pounds us on the head. The world beats us up. Wake UP! Wake UP! The world wants our union with it.