This was a good talk, because it released me of a Wheel of Samsara I have been tied to like the Inquisition, you know, when are tied to a wheel and stretched. That is a metaphor for the Wheel of Suffering that is us when we fail to see that all waves of life have an up and a down. When we just try to have a good wave, we are landing out good intention with balance, from ground zero. We just want to have all positive. and the negative comes at us from the future as our enemy or fate. We become a tragic figure. But the tragedy is transmuted into comedy when you see that the Wheel of Samsara (the up) is also the down, and in that SEEING the Wheel of Samsara become the Wheel of Nirvana or the Kingdom of God. It is all around us but we can’t see it because we don’t believe it is already always here as us. We have to fix it, make a good intention to create it..and in so doing create hell.
You should, everyone of you, watch this talk because we are all caught on the Wheel of Good Intentions. When good intentions go bad we feel we are innocent because we had Good Intentions. But the victim of. your good intentions feels the bad of your good intentions. Yet, when he complains, you say I had good intentions. Stepping back one can see that Good Intentions create a whirlpool of good/bad. And once the whirlpool gets started it all hands on deck trying to straighten the whirlpool out into the original good intention. But you can’t do it. The whirlpool won’t straiten out because you effort to straighten it our is creating the whirlpool. When you can stand on the river shore and look at the whirlpool as a yin/yang, good intentions chasing its twin bad intentions, dark chasing light, light chasing dark, when you can see the whirlpool as you are caught in it BAM! in that seeing you are free from the Uroboros, self stalling snake, my favorite metaphor.
Then, you stop feeding the dragon, and it begins, deprived of energy to wind down. The clock stops when you stop winding it.
The question—why my good intentions go bad—is the Shakespearian tragedy of humanity, of us. How can we turn tragedy into comedy? Now that is a Zen question, and you know I like Zen. Satori is the flash of awareness, the Gestalt that sees the whole instead of the dually, instead of the polarity, and BAM! you are free from the self created Sting of good intentions gone bad, or your strengths turning into your weakness, which always happens.