Movies, great movies a metaphorical maps to the internal search for Source, or Who am I? In our materialistic culture everything is an IT, an object, a thing with qualities; that’s why if you can’t measure something, if it has no time and place, it doesn’t exist. This assumption comes from our grammar that sees everything as a subject doing something to an object. The Subject is Me as an object doing something (a verb) to another thing. Noun, verb, noun.; everything is a thing doing something to other things.

But when I ask in my heart, Who am I? Being a thing defined by others or even myself does not satisfy that question. Either others define me—and that’s no good—or I define myself—and that’s no good. When I am defined, either by others or myself I have boundaries and I’m separate by definition from other defines things. This is a static world. This is a created world. This is a world that is not changing. As a thing I am the created. As a thing I am a victim of who or what that defines me. As the created….I cannot answer the question Who am I? because the answer is in the dictionary of Culture. There in the Book of Culture I am defines and my profile is listed. There is something inside that screams NO! I will not be pined to the wall like a butterfly in Culture’s Laboratory.

The Great Quest is then upstream of Culture, to find the source not only of Culture by of my self. There is only One Source. There can’t be two sources for Culture and for me. I am a part of culture. My ego is kept in place by culture. I am part of the grid. All my values have value in my culture or subculture. I am culture and culture is me. So there can be only one Source for culture and me. The Source is upstream of Culture and Me.

I have to swim again the current of culture. Like a salmon I have to swim upstream to return to the Source. This is not easy because you have to swim against the stream of What Will People Think?

Like in Apocalypse Now, Willard had a single minded intention to accomplish his mission, to get to the source. Though all the psychic dramas his single minded intention kept him going. And this is the only thing that will take us to our Source, a single minded intention that doesn’t waver or get sidetracked by culture, which is going to be hell bent to keep you from finding the source of Culture. Culture is a worldview that does not allow doubt. You can do anything you want as long as. you stay within culture and the choices if offers, but you cannot question the fundamental assumptions of Culture itself.

And this is not easy because to question the assumptions that hold Culture together you have to question the assumptions that hold you together.