So this talk is about creating yourself instead of being created by others or society. The Mortar and Pestle of Christ is that you have be let yourself be ground up by those who don’t agree or understand you without raising a hand in defense. The Mortar and Pestle is about the union of opposites that work together. You create yourself anew when you let your contradictions works as one new person, a new birth. That’s right, when you are born again, the ingredients for the birth is the union of your inconsistencies in. your lower nature. You have to transcend you conflicted nature, you arguing opposites, to create yourself anew. Other wise you just keep oscillating between your opposite voices, speaking as one today and the other the next day in a perpetual Ground Hog Day.

Frankly, I’m done with that. I no longer argue with myself and therefore I don’t argue with you.

There is great joy in being free from a script. When I first feel into the Wonderland of Awakening in 1968, I was a novice Alice. I thought I had arrived. But the hole was deeper than I thought. But I was teaching English, and I threw the text books in the trash and started speaking like I am here. In short work I was out of the institution. Integrity intact but without a job or even a reference.

So my Martini Time is very liberating for me because I’m unplugged here. I don’t drop the mike because it’s pinned to my shirt. But that’s the metaphor right there. When someone is unplugged, what does that mean? It means they are no longer following a script, a lesson plan, an agenda, a music score, anything. They are not following anything. They are empty of scripts and the calculating mind. Which means you are free of a fearful self, from good sense even. People laugh at you and say “You are something else.”

But there is something impelling about being unplugged because you don’t know what’s coming next, and neither does the. person who is unplugged. One is unplugged from expectation. You don’t know what to expect. You are in the unknown zone.

The truth is that you can live your life this way, but it’s a razor’s edge, because you have to remain sane. You have to remain cognizant of the whole reality. You have to know what you are doing, even though in the moment you don’t know what you are doing. A background wisdom awakens that guides you, otherwise you can slip off the edge into the absurd, even insanity.

We have to shift the reference to these Idea —and they are ideas because you don’t have Jesus knowing on your door— to yours and mine everyday life instead of the Bible, history, theology or the Church or our society. We have to get unplugged from all that. Just yank the wire out. If you want the living Christ you have to make the reference to the living, and where is that? Not the objective living of things out there but YOU. But here again we are stuck in the wires. We have to get unplugged from the idea that I am a thing in society whose reference is to what is known in society. I have to unplug from all that. I mean really unplug. Yank the wire out of the wall. We have to get so unplugged that I know nothing.