This was a fun talk because along with marriage I have a lot of roller coaster experience behind me, for every ten years I have been known to flip from eating meat to not eating meat, for no apparent reason. So now I eat meat, as I am in the life process of removing all conflict and violence in my mind. Life feeds on life…so I am life…so be it. But this is not to impose my way on others. Far from it. Because I’m non-violent have no no conflict with the ways and opinions and beliefs of others. I see God or spirit in all forms. Because God is a chicken doesn’t mean I can’t eat it. God is eating God. We all come out of the same hole.
But what is interesting I found in my talk is the Idea of the Vow. Unless we are going to rise above the violence and conflict of our mind as the world, (this is important. The violence is in our own mind), we need a vow.
But here is the question: Is the Vow taken in order to achieve results, like being free from the pain of violence and conflict within or without, if so then we do or take the vow, and that in itself is going to create conflict, an induced conflict, if you will, between the Vow and the desires for whatever you are giving up by the Vow.
The other way, which is more mysterious, is that at some point the Vow does you. Then there is no violence conflict with your desire because the desire just falls off. You are not vowing to not desire or eat this or that; you just don’t do it. Period. There is no choice denied, no desire denied. The desire doesn’t rise. And that is because you didn’t vow against your own mind.
So where does the Vow that does you rise from, since it is not an act of your will against your own will. This Vow that does you rises when you SEE the futilely of inner conflict in your own mind, of pitting yourself against yourself.
When I entered the Guru Path in 1970 and my teacher “put her foot on my neck” by proscribing the Vow to not eat meat, the meat just fell off without any inner conflict with the smell of fried chicken. But when I left the path five years later, the meat desire came back like a tsunami, completely carrying me away from my path. When my heart realized that was going on, that I was once again embroiled in a civil war of my own mind—my high ideal of who I wanted to be and who I was, eating expired hot dogs—my yoga path came back and once again the meat just dropped off.
I guess my Vow now is to have no inner mental conflict, no civil war with myself. So if I eat meat, I eat meat. If I don’t eat meat, I don’t eat meat. If I have a martini and call it the Eucharist at Martini Time@5, then I have a drink of the gods. When you find God everywhere, even in chicken, you enjoy God everywhere.
I’m glad you like my talk (it was risky business when I get family on FB). But so many are making this turn by going veggie or vegan—as I told you, one is either liberal or a purist in vegetarianism, the Full Monty, so to speak—that I wanted to find the deeper thread to this quilt instead of just focusing on the superficial often discordant patches of our life. A Vow like this is basically taking a seat and saying I will not let the mind move me from this spot. Sheldon’s Spot. It is only from this Spot from which you cannot moved, that can can begin the task of bringing order and sense to life, because we all inherit the Monkey Mind in this society, and creating your Vow, your Spot gives you a center that is not just jumping with the monkey. From the Spot you can restore order from the chaos of our current world.