A fantastic talk for me because right in the middle of it a phone rang and unseated me. I became self conscious and lost my talk. Right there is was in the ambiguity of Jake Sully caught between two ITS, two worlds, two ME’s and I couldn’t choose which one was the True ME because both IT me’s were the same. Confusing?
Okay. Watch the talk and notice how I regained my center, my talk by restoring my center. When the phone rang I was an irritant, an IT that shouldn’t be. The instant I make the phone an Irritating IT, I became irritated. Now there are Two “I”s, the I that was the phone as It and myself as the IT that was irritated with the phone. Now I am split, divided against myself because the I that is irritated with the phone, is really an I that is irritated with I, or a divided me irritated with it’s own clone. This creates the paralysis of ambiguity where you can’t choose one of the Me’s because both are the same coin but with two faces.
So how did I get out of the “stage fright?” I accepted the phone call. I mentioned it, and as I reported that I had lost my center, I regained my center, I restored balance by SEEING both ITs, the Me that was irritated with the me that was the phone. You must understand here that there is a paradigm shift for you to see this. Whatever Object you perceive as some IT, that IT is your perception as an object. That object is YOU projected as an IT, and when you see an IT, it is either going to have a pleasant or unpleasant feeling tone, or neutral (boring). That Separate IT simultaneously creates yourself as a subject perceiving that IT. You then take on the pleasant or unpleasant feeling tone of the IT. If it is unpleasant, you try to avoid it. If it is pleasant you try to hold it.
During the talk, I couldn’t shut off the phone because it was in the other room, yet I thought my friend was holding it. He couldn’t therefore turn it off. So it just kept ringing, and I began to fall into the vortex of a lost center. The way out of the vortex is through SEEING that you have split because that SEEING is not split. That SEEING is who you truly are as the Knower or SEEER. In this way you heal the wound of the split mind through creative seeing. The SEEING of the wound or two Me’s is the action of restoring center in action, in your talk, in your speech. I post the Ouroboros as a symbol of the Two Me’s devouring itself as it tries to restore unity. The dragon really has two Heads, not a head and a tail. Question that has no answer is which head is my true head. Since the head is split into two ends like a horseshoe, the feed-back loop accelerates until its explodes if not checked or stopped by a savior or intervention. The only true end to the vortex is through the intervention of your own SEEING.
We are jumping off the Pirate’s Plank on this talk using Avatar as our chart. Just like Indiana Jones, you have to be able to crack the metaphorical code in order to follow the clues to liberation from the wound of a split self. This talk is a real time Avatar adventure because I become Jake Sully in real time, getting caught between two halves of my own Self, and unable to know which was the real me, I froze like a deer in the headlight of the camera. We all have that experience of the No Man’s Land between two equal but opposite choices where we can’t choose our way out. It’s called a dilemma.
So I discovered the way our here in real time as I got caught in the vortex of self-consciousness, which means the ambiguity of two selves: which one am I? I am two but I must be One, but I can’t choose because choice is divided.
When I SEE the Two that is One, the SEEING is the ONE, and that ONE is not thought but action. Mind and body are ONE is the act of SEEING that is outside of the Two IT’s or divided mind/self. SEEING integrates.
Lets get practical. What do you do when you get stage fright? What do you do when you suddenly become self-conscious and lose you train of thought, when you lose your confident center? We lose center when something or someone intervene and judges us, makes us into an IT. But what really happens is the judgment of others makes us into two ITS, not one. It is I who makes myself into Two ITS. It is I who destroys my center and paralyzes my action, freezes me in the headlight of objectivity.
How does that happen? In the talk the phone rang, and I was conscious of IT as an intervention, something that should not be there. Before the phone, I was in my center talking with my One Voice in total confidence. Suddenly I was broken and off center. It was not the phone that was the irritating IT, now I was the embarrassed IT. Who was I now? There were Two ITS” the phone and the me that was irritated with the phone. The One was now Two, yet there must be only One me. I couldn’t restore my One by removing the phone because it was not in the room, but I thought it was. That was the irritant. I thought my friend had it and he wasn’t turning it off as he sat there listening to me.
BAM! That was the catalyst. I saw both ITS, but the SEEING was a shift in view point from one of the I-ITS resisting the other I-IT, to the One SEEer who say them bought, like a parent watching two kids on a teeter totter.
That shift in viewpoint from being on the teeter totter of two ITS to the park bench restored Center and the Talk.