Lets look at Worry as a mini cult. Worry is a circular pattern of thought packed with an emotional wind. Its center is the dark hole of fear of the future: what’s going to or could happen. Cults are collective Worry whirlpools that form around a fear, and build in strength as it tries to remove the fear—but the more worry thoughts that circle the center pole of darkness, the stronger the dark hole feels. The Worry cult believes it is the outside forces that are increasing the fear, so it calls for more anger and effort to repel the enemy outside.
We can see the “mini cult” in our own mind when we are sucked into a Worry Vortex. The more we worry, the stronger the fear gets. Unchecked Worry, can grow into a Panic Attack, a stage 5 hurricane that destroys all systems.
A cult is a reality shaping vortex that divides the one world into two equal halves: inside against the outside, us vs. them. What the cult does not see, since it has split reality in two is that every circle it draws in the sand of reality has an inside and an outside, and the inside is defined by the outside. You can’t separate the inside from the outside for the outside is the inside’s shadow. Whatever the inside does to avoid the outside, the outside follow in sync. The cult is forever trying to escape or remove its own shadow. The inside is the Good and its own outside is the Bad. This is insane.
The Ego is our personal cult leader that draws strength from the energy of the vortex. The Ego/Cult leader is the dynamic center around which the whirlpool integrates itself in flowing water of reality .But if you look into a whirlpool to see what holds it together, nothing is there. And that’s what the ego/cult center is afraid of. It is afraid of nothing.
Our Ego is a center that integrates the incoming data from the brain into a coherent meaning reality.The Ego lives in its story of the world. Whatever is floating in the river of reality takes form and meaning around the whirlpool’s center; the reference for all meaning is ME. The purpose of the whirlpool is to keep Me existing in time. Yet, the whirlpool has no substance. The whirlpool cannot stand alone as a thing. It is just an energy pattern perpetuated in time by fear. Me is just a Black Hole in the mind that we are afraid to peer into.
The energy pattern of Me is our Karma. The spiritual practice of Mindfulness is the intention to see the non-extence of Me as a whirlpool. Awareness starves the pattern of its energy because awareness does not identify with the Me that is a pattern. Awareness is stillness. When I’m aware of the pattern of ME or the movement of Me, I’m not identified with ME. The whirlpool then weakens in direct proportion to my being mindful of it.
As Awareness increases, the whirlpool of fear decreases: as Awareness decreases or goes to sleep, the whirlpool increases in strength.